Wrestling with yourself... Father wins at the end

I admit sometime I am showing some OCD symptoms in my life...

Well...I believe not only me... 

Life is like wrestling with yourself,

usually it comes to an end that has no result

then later Father wins at the end...

When you want something

you always try to persuade yourself that 

you need it 

or I could save it for later

because you just want it...

but Father's words show in your mind, be content...

Father wins...

Recently I have been reading Titus for a ladies' study...

I am so excited about it...

The reason is that this is my first little group study and it is all about how to become a Godly woman

Yeah! for me and also for my husband

But I wrestled again during my study...

Lesson one,  Be Sober... no problem

Lesson two, Be a Good Wife... no worries

here comes Lesson three, Be a Loving Mother...

Battle started...

my mind told myself that I am not a mother yet, how am I gonna do this lesson...

I go through the whole lesson... but I couldn't write down a word...

The questions have nothing to do with me right now

Still in my own mind I just think....

I am physically not a mom yet

so I couldn't know as a mother how to do it...

Again, I look through all the verses, but I still can not write down anything...

I told myself that I am not ready for the study this week...

Well... this leads me to tears for a while...

Hubbo understands my struggle... He said it this way

You are not a mom yet, but God's word is for everyone, every different situation

You're a teacher

You're taking care of kiddos at the orphanage

A loving mother is to love her kids the way that God loves us

A loving mother is all about building good character for her kids

That is exactly the goal I want for my students 

and 

the orphans

Students are my kids

Orphans are my kids

Game over

Father wins again

Although this lesson I did not write much down

I learned much more from our Father

Thank you, thank you, thank you...

I am young, true...

but you may experience the same wrestling game as me

Just enjoy the game process

You may win more than just the title!